Okaaay....
Well... I am not doing so well in life right now.
Yay for the haters :) your wish has come true for now.
I am suffering a little.
Well... Before I get to my story this time, let me just say that I apologise for the long time of inactivity. I was busy.. More likely being lazy to update. But thanks for still viewing my blog.
So the stories begin ei?
Someone told me that 50% of our life belongs to our mother or father. Depends on who is dominant in the house. This, you should understand.
But then, here comes my problem on facing this. My life, Me. I want to fill my life to the fullest. Like really full! I want to explore. Play in competitions that I've always dreamed of by sitting in the bench or getting late night imagination when I am about to sleep. But if I were to give away my early 50% of my life. Then, I will be too old to do all of this stuffs. Most of all, I am not qualified by then. When do you shape yourself? When do you learn your skills? It is all from young during you were chibi time! But if I am not developed, not trained, not experience. Then when? When can I really have my fun? Must I not have fun and keep on thinking on the next generation that I have to keep making myself better in the things that can give me luxurious of life by materialism ? No. That is not how it should work. I want to life my teenage life so that I wouldn't forget the stuffs I do. Like playing badminton with friends or maybe joining a super duper long marathon so that my friends and I can talk about it.
I really want life to be meaningful. I don't want to survive in this world. I want to live. What if one day, God wants me to be with him? I will have full of regrets on things I didn't get the chance to do. It depress me every time I think bout it.
I DON'T WANT TO SURVIVE, I WANT TO LIVE!!!!
