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Saturday 30 May 2015

A Noble man

Well, my blog posts has been very short and very seldom...
and I am feeling damn envy with people who has blogs and post some very long things
So here is something I am doing
I am going to tell you about my past
It's a very emotional story of mine
I don't know if you are going to understand or feel the story but here goes nothing


When I was standard four, I was a good friend of a teacher <.<"
That teacher name is Mr.Guna, a discipline teacher.
I wasn't a good boy that time
In fact sometimes I played truant off school once a while just to get my favorite food
Well .... basicly, this teacher couldn't change my nature
So he did the usual thing...
like talking to me. and getting to know me even better than my family members
It's most likely because my family members are not so often home
In the end, my grades was getting all topsy turvy.
My mom decided to sent me to a tuition
and surprisingly that tuition teacher is Mr.Guna's house and he is the teacher for Malaysia Language, English, Maths and Science..

My grades maintained and had a few slight rise but it was still at the C grade ... and trust me C grade in primary school is pretty bad =.="
Out of the blues, a year later, he got a letter that he is shifting school.
I ran out of the class, most likely because I didn't care of the teacher in front teaching.
I only cared about him since he was one of my best friend, a good teacher.
I was the first student to question him about his transfer and also the first student who tried to stop him.
In the end, he calm me down and said he has to leave since the offer letter has already been issued.
The worst of all, my mom decided that I could go to a tuition center since I am already old enough.
Therefore I lost contact with him.

My grades kept on falling but I tried my best to maintain them and in the end when I was standard 6, I was transferred from the second class to the first class... and yet my grades was not so good compare to the top five student in those class...
time flies so fast and I was busy playing around, I didn't realise that UPSR was just around the corner (UPSR is one of the big exam before you go into middle school)

I suddenly got a phone call, it was from my old friend,Mr.Guna. The conversation when on like this:

Mr.Guna: Hi V! So how are you?
Me: I am good, sir! How are you?
Mr.Guna: I am as usual. UPSR is along the corner. Are you ready V?
Me: Honestly sir, I am not ready at all
Mr.Guna: ah! I see. Why not come to my house whenever you are free. I will give you free tuition
Me: I'll try my best to come,sir !

So for one month I went to his house every night for three hours he sat beside me, guide me whatever I didn't know. He bought for me exercise books which I would never ever do if my mum bought for me because I am lazy. He called me to do it. He tried his very best to help me and polished me to be a good student. With that willpower he used to guide and teach me.
His effort, his time, his devotion, everything that he showed me, made me feel amazed and I really wanted to make him proud.
In the end. I got straight A's in my UPSR examination

I gave him a call. He said he was going to another state to live with his sister. He said his health condition is not so good anymore and his sister is going to take care of him.

Lost contact for two years.... for two years
suddenly on 22nd of March 2012 an sms came in
I still have that sms in my old phone never ever wanted to delete it
It says:

"Mr. Guna has passed away yesterday. His funeral will be done on today at 12 noon."

How I wanted to run. Run to see him.. for the last time... but I couldn't ....

without him. I would never ever achieved what I am today.
I could never get staight A's in all of my national exam.
Without him, I would probably be a guy playing truant.. getting the bad grades.

He was the best person I've ever known...
He was like a father to me.
Without him, I wouldn't achieve anything great in this life
Every achievement I get, part of it he has a credit in it.

I have to stop writing already... My tears are already building up.
I just couldn't forget him..
I could never

Thursday 28 May 2015

Utar or matrix.. God's hand

So hei

You will see a picture around here.. Hope it makes you hungry because I am. The reason I am posting on midnight this time is because I am depressed.... Looking oitside of my window where there is a big apartment and the stars shining so brightly makes me calm.... Ok yeah... Back to my problem...
What was it again? I forgot.... Oh yeah ... Matrix or Utar... Its not my decision ... If my pledge to enter Matrix is accepted.. .then I need to go for Matrix... Because... Come on... I beg for that thing and I am going to let it go?... Not happening... But I don't really want matrix tho.... Well I lived so many type of life and personalised so many people with my bipolar.. But so far.... Nowdays... There is nothing fun to do... I don't care about studies.... I just want to know... Where I am going? ... Is it fun for me?.... Will I feel fun?