Sad depressed stress

I wish I could just say "PLEASE STOP THAT" to Madam L.
I just can't stand the way how sarcastic she could be or how is her behaviour when people ask her a question...
I just hate it. The only time I heard her tone of a teacher and a mother was when I was sick
but I am so confused now....
Am I hatin her or likin her?

Pelik betul la perangai budak sekolah ni... dah banyak masalah nak cari masalah orang lain pulak

This school people are worse than the normal school I had.....
Worse than any arrogant people I ever seen...
Its soooooo stupid, you already got lots of problem and you still wanna find other people's problem....
Eh shits, go solve your problem first 
Don't keep finding other people's mistake
Make yourself perfect first ok?

I just came back to this school even though for not a "SO" long holliday and You came to see me just to give me advice which was suppose to give like 2 weeks ago- School problem

Self Problem- one thing good enough is I bought a camera bag for myself ..... I think I post the picture so this one isn't going to have any pictures.....

my problem was with Naufal..... well he is a good man but he takes the blame like literally as if it was his fault..... I know that he want's to help but nobody except me is gonna appreciate it.... I want to thank for his caring heart but I had to be crossed with the person who lose it....

I just wish that I want to get out fast from this school....
Yes this school is good but sometimes the students sucks.....
 I want to go and continue what I usually do with my friends back home
I want to go out and play bowling alone
I hate the surroundings here but not the teachers....
Its only because of this year students....
I just wish I have a 1 month holiday for myself....

JUST FOR FUN

 ah!!!!

I've been hoping to get this bag for so long and finally it is in my hands

RM250.... not bad but still expensive... ori price is RM398

Retail Price is RM300

and I get for RM250

surely I am not gonna bring this to school.... its too expensive XD but its comfortable
I have to wait until I am in University then only I start playing with my full set camera...
but some of it was lost.... I pity the prefect that had to pay it back I seriously am....
the person who lost it should be resposible ... the person who borrowed it...
not the person who tagged along....
Such A B**** la that guy

Anyways guys! whoever who is reading this pls wish me luck in my days after school
I don't wanna remember bout school anymore when it ends

nth to do

 Latihan menembak
 Soon Shooting competition
Wish me luck :)

two top photographers in the school....
both gonna retire dy
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this is a song to say about me ....
I like a person but it's too hard to confess...
sorry but I am too scared

so this is a book <.<

well it is something I am reading 

it gives me the motivation to do things even though time has gone cruel with me 

but I will cope

Well today was a normal day, had school , back from school and now I am updating my blog
nothing big happen today
it's just that I am starting to build my interest in chemistry
so hopefully my chemistry will be an A+ scored (Y)
I am hoping I have interest in biology which I know is going to be hard to make it happen
so wish me luck :)
And I am starting to miss a lot of people ....
besides
Its nearly my off day
meet you guys this friday

continuation of my sad life

YO to everyone out there so here is a news of myself but it isn't very pleasant to be known
besides I am SAD about it anyways

my camera bag was left at one of the MRSM at Malacca (i don't know where cuz i didn't follow)
now my beloved Lens is not with me
only the camera.... without a charger....
how stupid
the prefects should suppose to be perfect and not a person who loses people things....
now they say the wanna pay back...
even if you have the money
will it be the same as the original ones...
will my feelings still be there for it....
I don't know ....
I was being emotional for the pass two weeks...
and I pray that hopefully my continuation days wouldn't be such a bad day

and besides that I also started picking up interest on one violinist
here is a video of her XD enjoy

alaaaa....
semua tak dapat
basketball tak dapat
boling tak dapat
bola baling tak dapat
markah koko aku mesti rendah
paling sedih boling tak dapat =-=
tak pe
masa universiti aku mesti nak dapat boling !

6/2/14 worst day of my life :)

taken from My Diary :

- today I got scolded by Madam Lim
it was a misunderstanding but I got a heck of a scolding
well she thought i was playing truant...
while I am snapping pictures to make 2 videos of the form 4 intake 1 for them to enjoy what the activities they had done...
and there I got scolded badly
accused badly
didn't know what to said...
She told me to went in my class
but actually that period the teacher was not there
I only wanted to make my life easier....
I can't be spending my midnight oil on catching their pictures....
I have homework to do
and at the same time I had the opportunity to take some good shots of the event they were making
and I get scolded... hahaha San fantrastic
People always think that : Oh it's super easy for this guy
taking photographs walking around the school, playing truant
but do you think I wanna play truant all day long
I have my SPM coming within 280 days
You think taking pictures is easy?
I had a hard time trying to get in and catching good pictures with nice lightings and just to get people's insults saying that oh you are lucky cuz you don't need to do this and that
How am I ever happy hearing those words?
And then I didn't get into the basketball team, the chess team, nor my gracious bowling team,,,,
I left my bowling ball at home and now I couldn't do anything
the decision is made.....
I can't go argue with it
But I really want to go for the competitions.....
How can my day gets even worst <.<

Conclusion : I AM NOT HAPPY

I never ever been wanting to get a post in school.... cuz of parents most likely
you might say that i am rich or whatsoever
but i'm not
how can i be rich when my uniform was used for 5 years XD (most likely cuz i grew slow)
but i don't wanna change school uniform
a single uniform cost about 80-90 myr
3 sets would be nearly rm200
its better i keep that money for my future use
but i am so afraid of my kokurikulum marks.... as if i am scared not getting a scholarship....
oh dear god... please help me
my life isn't so perfect
it never was.... but if there is something that i can do
I will give everything i've got for my parents....
I just want them to be happy
holding a certificate of my greatest achievement in my life
getting a scholarship and going to a college
but i can't cope on... with my current studies...
I don't wanna be a failure.... but i am starting to be one
I don't know what to do