One of the peoples I look up to

It's kinda sad when I hear this song and look at Korra's face.

The moment when she was so powerful and full of confidence suddenly had lost fate in herself which kinda set me back a little.

She did became even stronger.

Every time she comes back she is more stronger.

But somehow, her confidence has become weaker and weaker

It's just so sad

p.s. It's and hour loop

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0aiqDUHhOU

Dumb Me

Ahahaha, 

Hello guys and girls.

I just realise that one of my songs does not play as usual which is Jason Mraz's song. I'm yours.

I just reedited it. I totally forgot how to edit the SCM music player 's playlist and only managed to edit it by one hour time when I could had done it within 5 minutes...

ugh!

So sad :(

anyways... Finals for sem two is coming soon.

Although my home there is some family problems, but I will try to concentrate on my studies as much as I can... It is hard nowadays... life that is :P

Anyways... wish my luck :)

Dear me

Dear me,
Because of my attitude, you are about to suffer.
I am very sorry for what is about to happen.
I just hope somehow luck will help you out.
Good luck to dear me.
I leave this disaster on your shoulder

It's always a dilemma

Okaaay....

Well... I am not doing so well in life right now.
Yay for the haters :) your wish has come true for now.
I am suffering a little.
Well... Before I get to my story this time, let me just say that I apologise for the long time of inactivity. I was busy.. More likely being lazy to update. But thanks for still viewing my blog.

So the stories begin ei?
Someone told me that 50% of our life belongs to our mother or father. Depends on who is dominant in the house. This, you should understand.

But then, here comes my problem on facing this. My life, Me. I want to fill my life to the fullest. Like really full! I want to explore. Play in competitions that I've always dreamed of by sitting in the bench or getting late night imagination when I am about to sleep. But if I were to give away my early 50% of my life. Then, I will be too old to do all of this stuffs. Most of all, I am not qualified by then. When do you shape yourself? When do you learn your skills? It is all from young during you were chibi time! But if I am not developed, not trained, not experience. Then when? When can I really have my fun? Must I not have fun and keep on thinking on the next generation that I have to keep making myself better in the things that can give me luxurious of life by materialism ? No. That is not how it should work. I want to life my teenage life so that I wouldn't forget the stuffs I do. Like playing badminton with friends or maybe joining a super duper long marathon so that my friends and I can talk about it.
I really want life to be meaningful. I don't want to survive in this world. I want to live. What if one day, God wants me to be with him? I will have full of regrets on things I didn't get the chance to do. It depress me every time I think bout it.

I DON'T WANT TO SURVIVE, I WANT TO LIVE!!!!

Oh my gosh

So yeah... From my previous post I said about me going in Matriculation right? Forget it! Appeal also didn't get .. Better don't need to appeal.
Anyway.. Let's cut loose the anger and take the happiness in (my reader cannot have my anger as it might affect the blog happiness)

So ... I enter UTAR and there was this senior who knows i like bowling a lot.... And he recommend me to go for this internal bowling competition among faculty for staffs and students! And so I enter ( so many ands )

So today was the match day and guess what... I score a total of 549 pinfalls in three games... First game was 200 second was 178 and third game was 171 and to good God gracious! I got first place for individual men and my partner and I score about a total of 870 pinfalls and managed to grab the first place for ourselves with a score difference of 70 from the second place... Basicly, our faculty won for the overall champion �� foundation won degree �� okay okay... That was bad.
Anyway... I hurt my thumb a little but its okay. Worth the pain for two medals.. So wooohooooo... First two medals in bowling in a day ! How happy I am today ��

A Noble man

Well, my blog posts has been very short and very seldom...
and I am feeling damn envy with people who has blogs and post some very long things
So here is something I am doing
I am going to tell you about my past
It's a very emotional story of mine
I don't know if you are going to understand or feel the story but here goes nothing


When I was standard four, I was a good friend of a teacher <.<"
That teacher name is Mr.Guna, a discipline teacher.
I wasn't a good boy that time
In fact sometimes I played truant off school once a while just to get my favorite food
Well .... basicly, this teacher couldn't change my nature
So he did the usual thing...
like talking to me. and getting to know me even better than my family members
It's most likely because my family members are not so often home
In the end, my grades was getting all topsy turvy.
My mom decided to sent me to a tuition
and surprisingly that tuition teacher is Mr.Guna's house and he is the teacher for Malaysia Language, English, Maths and Science..

My grades maintained and had a few slight rise but it was still at the C grade ... and trust me C grade in primary school is pretty bad =.="
Out of the blues, a year later, he got a letter that he is shifting school.
I ran out of the class, most likely because I didn't care of the teacher in front teaching.
I only cared about him since he was one of my best friend, a good teacher.
I was the first student to question him about his transfer and also the first student who tried to stop him.
In the end, he calm me down and said he has to leave since the offer letter has already been issued.
The worst of all, my mom decided that I could go to a tuition center since I am already old enough.
Therefore I lost contact with him.

My grades kept on falling but I tried my best to maintain them and in the end when I was standard 6, I was transferred from the second class to the first class... and yet my grades was not so good compare to the top five student in those class...
time flies so fast and I was busy playing around, I didn't realise that UPSR was just around the corner (UPSR is one of the big exam before you go into middle school)

I suddenly got a phone call, it was from my old friend,Mr.Guna. The conversation when on like this:

Mr.Guna: Hi V! So how are you?
Me: I am good, sir! How are you?
Mr.Guna: I am as usual. UPSR is along the corner. Are you ready V?
Me: Honestly sir, I am not ready at all
Mr.Guna: ah! I see. Why not come to my house whenever you are free. I will give you free tuition
Me: I'll try my best to come,sir !

So for one month I went to his house every night for three hours he sat beside me, guide me whatever I didn't know. He bought for me exercise books which I would never ever do if my mum bought for me because I am lazy. He called me to do it. He tried his very best to help me and polished me to be a good student. With that willpower he used to guide and teach me.
His effort, his time, his devotion, everything that he showed me, made me feel amazed and I really wanted to make him proud.
In the end. I got straight A's in my UPSR examination

I gave him a call. He said he was going to another state to live with his sister. He said his health condition is not so good anymore and his sister is going to take care of him.

Lost contact for two years.... for two years
suddenly on 22nd of March 2012 an sms came in
I still have that sms in my old phone never ever wanted to delete it
It says:

"Mr. Guna has passed away yesterday. His funeral will be done on today at 12 noon."

How I wanted to run. Run to see him.. for the last time... but I couldn't ....

without him. I would never ever achieved what I am today.
I could never get staight A's in all of my national exam.
Without him, I would probably be a guy playing truant.. getting the bad grades.

He was the best person I've ever known...
He was like a father to me.
Without him, I wouldn't achieve anything great in this life
Every achievement I get, part of it he has a credit in it.

I have to stop writing already... My tears are already building up.
I just couldn't forget him..
I could never

Utar or matrix.. God's hand

So hei

You will see a picture around here.. Hope it makes you hungry because I am. The reason I am posting on midnight this time is because I am depressed.... Looking oitside of my window where there is a big apartment and the stars shining so brightly makes me calm.... Ok yeah... Back to my problem...
What was it again? I forgot.... Oh yeah ... Matrix or Utar... Its not my decision ... If my pledge to enter Matrix is accepted.. .then I need to go for Matrix... Because... Come on... I beg for that thing and I am going to let it go?... Not happening... But I don't really want matrix tho.... Well I lived so many type of life and personalised so many people with my bipolar.. But so far.... Nowdays... There is nothing fun to do... I don't care about studies.... I just want to know... Where I am going? ... Is it fun for me?.... Will I feel fun?

Abandon

Mwahahaha i abandon this blog... I am so sorry guys.... But hear me out
I promise to post once a month....
This time is about an offer ....
I got an offer to go for a university to study about.... Science and technology ....
Sounds great right?... No not that simple
It is a university created for army/soldiers.... So i have to devote like 240 hours every year for army training....
So... Question is... Should I accept or not?
Worst decision of my life.... I shouldn't be an adult....

Graduation time

Well today I will be graduating from my high school....
They call this 1 step a head to adulthood ...
Wish me luck....
I applied to less scholarship most likely because I was picky and i regret it :(
Hope God can give me a second chance

Quiet times

Like i havent been updating so long time this blog looked like it was neglected...  Its just I do not have much topic to update about....  Like after school.  I did nothing much..  So now I am just waiting for a letter offer to go anywhere..  Basicly I want a scholarship..  I need it so much....  Besides.. I've been living in the fantasy world by watching lots of anime and English show....  Darn how much I missed Narnia haha haha....  Hope they continue the story...  Well at least I had finished reading the heroes of Olympus series :) lastly I have a video for u guys...  Wonder whether  I  can upload it or not

Driving

Yes!
I can feel it...
My driving license is nearly in my hands
Just need to sit the exam.....
I can drive well now
But as usual
We are youngster with lack of experience
So look after yourselves to those who is driving and have a nice day!
Peace out!

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like wanna kill myself....
Some people makes me feel so hard till they didn't realise that I nearly gave up on life and they still are selfish.....
I cried yesterday.....  Remembering of all the sins and deeds I had done.....
I remember what I had done for these past years which make me so sad till I felt that I will never ever repay the debts I had done to anyone.... Especially the ones who had moved on to another world.....
I cried remembering that all my success was a fluke...
A mere luck
Nobody will remember me.....
Even if they say I will remember you
Eventually they moved on by throwing their old life behind....
And worst of all...  I am the only one who still remember them all
A sad life I am having :)��

Waiting for the bus. ..

Ok I really am waiting for the bus..... Sometimes being slow can be a good thing.... If we didn't wait.... Then who will?.... We need to have many types of people ...
The ones who is willing to wait and the ones who isn't....
Same as love....
But I always choose to wait

New year post...

Ok... I know I am so late for this New Year Post thing but it's better late than never... Haha
I got a job at Aeon as a cashier....
And now I am going to gym
Ok gtg... Smell ya later