Sleep

I can't sleep...
I am afraid. Scared.
Because I know, that this time... I most likely could not reach your expectation... Muchless mine... I have had so many sleepless night and just feels like, I could not do the things I used to be able to do anymore. Mom, I am sorry. I am useless. I suddenly became so weak. Full of pride but yet foolish. I wouldn't be able to be the person who you think I could become. I do not regret my choice and decision. It is all my fault that made me came to this position. Sorry mom. There is nothing wrong with the things around. It's me. Myself is the problem. I am so sorry.

Girls

Girls are silly...
but that's what makes the adorable.
Damn what the hell am I thinking.

Sorry this is a very short post as I have not much time. I have final exams in 2 more weeks so I would be busy and will not be updating in this 1 month time. Thank you for staying tune. Have a nice month ahead. Goodbye

ARE MALAYSIANS RUDE?!

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A song

This will be a super short post. Sorry for not posting after for so long!
I promised once a month and I lied again. Sorry.


So I had written two new songs.
I had completed one of it and I am currently working on it.
I promise to post about it when I am finished :D

Dear you

Dear you,

How is outside there? How is it like at Spain? Waking up early to get a good breakfast.
Walk outside with some newly seen friends knowing stuffs that we could never find in Malaysia.
Comparing it with the stuffs we have and so on so forth. Talking about life but not about me. Explaining your origins, listen to the newly stuff that I could had never pour to you. Hopefully you are happy and I am praying for your happiness.

From:
Dear me...

Christina Grimmie

This blog is not about to describe a person. It's more to describe my life. Therefore if you came by to read about Christina... You wouldn't get much info anyway

Christina Grimmie has been an idol to me. The way she sings, the way she talk and everything about her is beautiful. She moved on at 11th of July getting shot by a man with two guns who shot himself afterwards as well.

I really admire Christina Grimmie since 2011 when first the song Just A Dream came out. I always like that song as it really somehow describe me, my life during 2009 where things sucks as hell.

Her voice moved me. Everytime I study I would on her song just to have a good time by myself listening to a person who is good at it. 

Just now I woke up at 2 am wanting to do something. Ended up playing League of Legends. I wanted to play one last game and then I was assign to play a character I haven't play a long time... Ahri, The Nine Tails Fox. Last I play Ahri was like 3 to 5 years back and had not played her for a freaking long time. Had good fun with playing Ahri. Some of the videos about Christina was her playing Ahri missing skillshots... I played and made sure I carried the game. 

RIP Christina.... I will miss your songs and covers...

I will always imagine how would you sing this song and that song. You are beautiful and God wants you to be with him. Go and entertain another world. You will do fine... I am sure of it :)

Hey :DDD

Hello :D
It's my birthday again this time and date :P
Happy birthday to me :)
Spending my time at home in front of my laptop
#lifeless
ahahah
Thanks for reading. Goodbye :P

Giving up or Continue?

Heyya guys :)
It's been a long time right?
So yeah. I will talk about something depressing when you saw the topic but no...
It is a question to you. To those who are in a relationship actually.
My question is to you that who felt depress, like you've been asking yourself, Why he/she is so cold? He/She is not answering my call, Why? Should I break up?
Well, think of the stuff that actually makes this relationship goes on. Not to mention the duration, but never care about that. Duration doesn't matter. You see, if I show you a piece of white paper with a black dot and ask what do you see? You will tell me about the black dot first regardless of what comes next. We are always fixated to find the faults and never see the smiles and memories that actually we treasure it.

In my experience, I actually agree to broke up which was a fool of me...
Now I wake up everyday missing of the things I used to do. The feelings I used to have. The regrets that I had done. It hurts a lot actually and if you see. I try to think about what could be fix and try to throw it all. In the end it turns to mistakes. Send her messages where she would not think of. Till now I am not sure whether she had read it or not...

So back to my question
Which is more worth in your current situations? Going with the person whom you love/loved and re-find back the love you had lost or just quit? Giving in to your ego or letting your ego down?
Choice is yours :)

Peace out :D

The thing I hate the most

Lies!!!!

That would be lies....
I hate to hear lies. I dislike them very much. It makes me angry if I detect them. It makes me even more angrier when I trust that sentence and later on find out to know that that statement is a freaking lie.
I don't get it. Be honest. It doesn't kills to be honest. I can't face a person who tell lies to me nor can I let them go. There is always a doubt. Was it my fault? or was it for the fun of it so a lie was told?

I am a very emotional person with my multiple personality syndrome. But when I am caught in a lie, thousands of personality will react to it. Most of em are negative! and trust me. I would do some crazy stuff just after knowing its a lie! I always go against the flow of life. I will feel guilty doing so but I am forced to. I can be real after knowing you are fake, can I? So be prepared to face the fake me. It will hurt a lot and it will be that way until God knows when...

THE END!!!!!!!!!

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