I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU
That's what most of us say to each other, to the ones we love, to the ones we like, to the ones we cherish about. But you all should correct what you say there. It was never Can't live. You still do live if they leave you. It's I couldn't live properly without you.
I realize that about a month after a break up. It was hard at first. was hard not to go into my facebook messenger. Was hard holding my phone. I topple them everywhere as I do not have the strength to held on the thing that I had always hold on to.. with a wishful thinking I set it on silent and look out at the balcony.
Taking drugs was not my favorite. I mean alcohol. I drank a lot last week. Keep on drinking and drinking. Filled the floor of my balcony with one bottle and another one and another one and another one. Memories grows stronger same goes with the depression. Sadness and then comes miss. Then there goes the hand. Finish another poem to be publish
Tuesday, 29 March 2016
Sunday, 27 March 2016
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Monday, 21 March 2016
Death Anniversary
Today is 22nd of march...
today is a sad day
this is the date when Mr.Guna died...
he died in 22nd march 2011
he was a wonderful teacher and my reason how I'd score my UPSR straight A's
today is a sad day
this is the date when Mr.Guna died...
he died in 22nd march 2011
he was a wonderful teacher and my reason how I'd score my UPSR straight A's
maybe to some of you, you might think, scoring straight A's in UPSR is simple. But my attitude that time, no... I can't do it without him
maybe some of you those who don't know him wouldn't mind about it
but he was a wonderful teacher, a friend and a nice father
I still have the sms when his friend took his phone, reloaded it and send the message that he had pass away till now...
After five years, today, once again I looked at that particular message and pray
Dear God,Please bless him where ever he is...
I love you Mr.Guna
You went away too soon
It cracked our heart
but he was a wonderful teacher, a friend and a nice father
I still have the sms when his friend took his phone, reloaded it and send the message that he had pass away till now...
After five years, today, once again I looked at that particular message and pray
Dear God,Please bless him where ever he is...
I love you Mr.Guna
You went away too soon
It cracked our heart
Sincerely
Victor Ong
Victor Ong
Monday, 14 March 2016
Not my best
This is not my best video but I was just simply doing this video.... took bout 10 minutes to finish it... easy job... I really like the song tho :P
Sunday, 13 March 2016
Wednesday, 9 March 2016
Laughter to cover up darkness in the heart
Just so tired of exaggerating people... They never notice that they are stepping on you.
Through the darkness of my heart that tempt me to be negative...
Lets change that instead
Darkness creates a new light
Through the darkness of my heart that tempt me to be negative...
Lets change that instead
Darkness creates a new light
Monday, 7 March 2016
Time vs love...
Time vs love
It's hard for me to move on as I am a sentimental person. After the break up, a lot of things happened. There was much confession back and forth. Emotions are running to high. I didn't thought that it would be this hard. Honestly, everyday I tempted to be in a new relationship. To get a new girlfriend. To find a new leash To get someone to understand me and be my leaning place. To restart... but I can't. Everyone is perfect no matter what you look like, how is your physical condition, your spiritual condition your emotions, the way you speak, the way you talk, the way you love... and I am grateful for all this love shown to me... But I am not ready. I'll never be in this time being as I am wounded and being crippled so badly. Been holding back my tears for so long, for a person who has gone for so long, for a promise that can never be fulfilled. Every single night, my tears just swells up in my eyes, begging just to flow out. Every single day, my heart just sank to the bottom when my mind triggers of how deep the wound is showing me that I can never be the same. Although yeah, you see me jumping around doing my happy face. But the heart was not there. and that hurts a lot...
It's hard for me to move on as I am a sentimental person. After the break up, a lot of things happened. There was much confession back and forth. Emotions are running to high. I didn't thought that it would be this hard. Honestly, everyday I tempted to be in a new relationship. To get a new girlfriend. To find a new leash To get someone to understand me and be my leaning place. To restart... but I can't. Everyone is perfect no matter what you look like, how is your physical condition, your spiritual condition your emotions, the way you speak, the way you talk, the way you love... and I am grateful for all this love shown to me... But I am not ready. I'll never be in this time being as I am wounded and being crippled so badly. Been holding back my tears for so long, for a person who has gone for so long, for a promise that can never be fulfilled. Every single night, my tears just swells up in my eyes, begging just to flow out. Every single day, my heart just sank to the bottom when my mind triggers of how deep the wound is showing me that I can never be the same. Although yeah, you see me jumping around doing my happy face. But the heart was not there. and that hurts a lot...
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