Update on life and blog

This blog is going to be abandoned by the year of 2021.

Well, let's start with update. Basically I wrote it all on my twitter. A month back, my shoulder had a slight dislocation due to old injuries of bowling. Muscles around it such as deltoids and supraspinatus was injured. Literally live my life wearing a shoulder support. One thing that I never write much in this blog is my bowling career. That is due to me not seeing myself being able to reach to my expectation and my desired level due to some external variables. I only wrote about it once which was two years back where I won two gold medals. I lost badly last year. Throughout the entire year I only got 1 bronze medal. So practically, this injury was caused by bowling and also some other sports. I am almost healed by now (not really sure tho). There is a competition coming soon at the 23rd of July and also I am having 5 test in 3 consecutive days, this coming week. So probably, I am gonna die. Weeeeeeeeeee

Now, why is this blog going to be abandoned by year of 2021 is because My wonderful life as a student ends at that time.... Unless if I go to Masters which is impossible. Therefore that is that. About the issue of opening a new blog... I am not so sure about it, because I don't feel like it. So, we see how it goes. Have a great day.

p.s. I will update on the competition if I win. If I do not update however.... then you should know what happened.... probably

Short reminder for myself

If you look around you you will see people's lives and thoughts on autopilot, now you tell me why someone else is dictating your life and thoughts, why, why are your thoughts being manipulated by external variables. What does it take to change those thoughts and therefore change your habits and life? Let's start with the concept of speed. 1697 newtons laws of motion. Newton's first law of motion; an object in motion will remain in motion unless acted upon by an external force. This thought teaches us to exterminate all negative external forces so we remain in constant motion. This knowledge is taught in high schools, colleges, it's all around you. Will you plummet down? Or soar up? Your perception decides. Eliminate any unnecessary external forces, Waste no time and ascend perpetually, so that your speed will never loose its motion. The law of attraction states, that what you seek is seeking you. That your frequencies and vibrations are energies that have a boomerang effect. Your attitude determines your direction. The speed acquired will determine IF you get there. The attitude acquired will determine HOW you get there. Stop rushing things that aren't meant to be rushed. If you must rush things, rush becoming patient. Be so patient that you are in a hurry. Enjoy the process of life. Fall in love with the process. Impatience is an ugly trait, nobody likes impatient people. A lack of patience effects those around you, it's like a gigantic domino effect of failure, and the worst thing about it is you won't see the chaos until it's too late. Let's say you are at a halt in a vehicle at a red light. The light goes green and immediately the vehicle beside you slams on the gas maxing out the vehicles speed in seconds. That same vehicle that was once beside you is now distant. Heading towards an intersection, as you near the intersection you witness a car crash. The drivers life? Over. The other drivers life? Over. Your life? Aware, patient, obedient and alert. Alive. Do society a deed, before you make decisions, pick up a book and read and under that every success has a seed. Only because behind that success is a patient individual who did the work and is able to lead. "But I'm not a born leader" What a poor excuse. And those things called excuses get you 0% closer to your goal. The greatest leaders lead from the back. A humility that is so powerful it makes the impossible possible. Their light is so dim its luminescent, their footsteps are so quiet they're thunderous, and their presence is so unknown, it's illustrious. As a leader you must make your own decisions. You must fill your days with positive habits and repeatedly complete them, day in and day out. Take your mind and your heart combine them, dig out your passion, build greater people of that passion, don't preach what you can't do, what ever you do do not be a hypocrite. Being a leader consists of work. You must lead by example. You can not lead until you can serve, you can not serve until you can work, you can not work until you see potential. You can not see your potential without intelligence. The realisation of potential, believing in yourself, believing in your vision from within, stepping forth, unleashing your full potential, and bringing your vision into fruition. Speed propels the vitality of life. Attitude controls it. Momentum maintains it. Patience protects it. Leadership guides it and intellect unleashes it

Scuba Scuba :P

Today's story.

I went for Discovery Scuba Diving (DSD)

Happily to say I survived. So here is the short story

During the scuba diving session, the instructor asked who can swim? I raised up my hands. He told me to get ready to jump into the 10 feet pool to swim and I was like "I had never swim in a place with no footings so I am not sure whether I can swim or I will drown." He said its okay. Just jump when I tell you to.

Few moments later we head out to the pool and he jumped in. He told me to jump as well. Me, without my googles nor the snorkel tube, hesitated for a few seconds(with a thought of what if I really can't swim without a footing) and then jump. It ended up me swimming through and fro without much of a problem. Student life in UTAR had thought me, its okay. Just do it don't mind death. If it comes it comes.

Hahaha. Jokes aside. It was truly a fun session.

Give a like if you have time :) Thanks Guys!!!

As the title has said, give a like if you have the time.
I know I have not been updating much these days. Please bear with me as exams are around the corner. I do have a draft of a new blog post but I haven't really finish it yet. Therefore, mean time, you can go ahead and watch the videos from this channel!
Thank you very much!!!

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Races, Culture, Country, Food

Hi again everyone,

I've been checking my stats recently and I realize I have a lot of entry from other countries besides Malaysia. For those who are new to this blog, Hi! I am from Malaysia. I haven't been out of Malaysia yet. But soon, one day, I will go and take a long vacation around the world. Can't really do it now because I am still studying for Degree in Mechanical Engineering.

Today I will be talking about culture and stuffs. In Malaysia to me, going around visiting places is not the attraction for me to move around. The best attraction would be the food! I had tried a lot of types of food. But, it seems it's like never ending. There are many different types of food and sorts. I have a few friends from Texas who came here to pursue their Masters cert. and etc. They really love the weather in Malaysia. They love the food (well, some of them... Depends on the types). Every single time my church receive a visitor, the first food to be tested out is call Durian, the king of all fruits. To some people, it has a pungent smell. Most of the tourist/visitors could not accept the taste. I can partially understand that. But, I love the fruit too much to hate it :P

So my friends from Texas invited us for dinner few times already. I really like the apple cider they make. It's not like the apple cider bear like Somersby or Strongbow, which is an alcoholic drink that is being sold here. But, it was more like a warm, soothing tea. Few weeks back, I ate lasagna that they had made with cheese and everything. My gosh! It was my first time eating it. I really like everything about it although the taste was extra extra strong that our normal spices we used normally in the kitchen. However, it was too delicious to not to eat.

Somehow no matter where we are, food is something what we like, what we appreciate, what we love. Calming ourselves like we are calming a raging girlfriend with food. Kinda funny when I say it like that. But yes, love yourself with food.

I definitely can't wait to explore the world with different types of food around.

That's it from me today!

Although...

Although the coughing blood haven't stop.  Today was a good day to end my dreadful infections and fever.  5 different dreams in an hour sleep. The first one made me laugh like crazy while I was sleeping. I woke up on my own laughter. 😂😂😂😂.
The last one made me smile as wide as I could. However,  dreams are dreams and I woke up nearly cried realising it. Foolish mind playing mind games. You think I will forget... Didn't you?

I skipped another month, didn't I?

Oh FML
Yes you did, Mr Seth! F**k you making us waiting with promised lies and pure bullshits! Thank you for wasting our times.

Hey, I did miss out another month. But, it's not like I wanted to miss it 😅 Don't be mad yea? Not very good for your blood pressure 😉.

Just a short post. A little update on my life.

Somehow coughing out blood/substance with blood in/on/within it doesn't surprise me. I was expecting it 😁😂.
Not like I will say something like, I have not long to live or shit like that. But yeap, I coughed out blood. Hundreds of tissue had suffered. Rest in peperonies!
I was bed ridden for past 7 days due to infection and somewhat suspected dengue.

Here is to be exact, bacteria infection at the left side of the throat, high fever on and off, and also a sinus infection. So yeah,  everything was topsy turvy... At the freaking first week of New Year! 😢

Damn it!  Why must this new year have a bad start.  Bed ridden for few days some more. Ugh.  Save me people. That's it for me though.  Good night, gotta have some rest. 😭😭😭😭

Skipped a month XD

Hey guys, it's November now and I forgotten to post for October. Yes guys, I forgot. I am so sorry that I always let people down when I had already promised them something.

Life is hard. No one ever said it is easy. I am so sorry about grunting about how hard life is for me. But at the same time, I am pretty grateful to you guys who always comes back to check on my blog, putting your caring thoughts about me although it's like 0.00001% of your life. Nevertheless, thank you very very much.

So, in the month of October there was nothing much to talk about it. I only have two subjects through out the whole semester and it is a 7 week sem. Yaaaayyyyyy. To be frank, on this date itself I am already free. I have no finals no nothing at all to do.  I had passed up all of my assignments and so on and so forth and most importantly, I have no finals!!!! Yeahhhhhh. I am free!!!

Pretty much this sem is all about training and going bowling and getting better and so on for an upcoming competition that is at 24th of November... Which had already passed and also we lost freaking freaking badly. Nevertheless an experience is one that is to be cherish. But this time I lost my cool on this particular competition. Everything happen was like totally shit. None of us, not even the strongest bowler in UTAR could cope up to the lanes. We just couldn't understand the method to play on the lane. We screwed up a big time. Most likely because the lanes weren't standard and the organisers are students!!! Freaking students conduct a regional competition and even joined to play in this competition. Freaking bullshit! Of course they would set up in a place where they are familiar to play. Not only they choose a place which has a lot of flaws, even the system and timing is a total bullshit and ripoff.

I really hate to be this weak. Especially when I have to give explaination to people around me. It's like a spear poking through me time and time over again. It is just so hurtful. I had never ever been this weak during competition. I went back home feeling frustrated. Kept on and on asking God, the purpose of this happening to me. The reason to keep on playing, give me faith, hope, reason. I just stopped believing in myself. No more faith. No more strength. I couldn't even stand to go for the second day of the competition. I went there like a weak person and ended up making friends. I mean, I love it when I make new friends. But its just that I couldn't even reach my average score during the competition. It is so hurting that all of the time and money, the struggles that I had been through, the lies, the explaination, the suffering, the pain, the injuries, the healing , everything that I had done was just wasn't worth it. I just like a lost hope. I couldn't believe that I just lost like that. Fall off so badly. I don't really know what to do or what to feel now. Only God can help me right now I guess.

In Jesus name I believe, amen.

#blacknovember #badmonth #badtimes


p.s. I will post another post since I skipped one month's post. Post it later after I think of a relevent points on things that happens around nowadays. Below are the pictures that I recently caught throughout these two months. Hope it's good enough to reilluminate this blog. Good night peeps :D

 The picture of a moon surrounded by clouds

 Entrance to the waterfall of Jeram Toi

 Waterfall from the Damp of Ulu Bernam

Sleep

I can't sleep...
I am afraid. Scared.
Because I know, that this time... I most likely could not reach your expectation... Muchless mine... I have had so many sleepless night and just feels like, I could not do the things I used to be able to do anymore. Mom, I am sorry. I am useless. I suddenly became so weak. Full of pride but yet foolish. I wouldn't be able to be the person who you think I could become. I do not regret my choice and decision. It is all my fault that made me came to this position. Sorry mom. There is nothing wrong with the things around. It's me. Myself is the problem. I am so sorry.