Dear you

Dear you,

How is outside there? How is it like at Spain? Waking up early to get a good breakfast.
Walk outside with some newly seen friends knowing stuffs that we could never find in Malaysia.
Comparing it with the stuffs we have and so on so forth. Talking about life but not about me. Explaining your origins, listen to the newly stuff that I could had never pour to you. Hopefully you are happy and I am praying for your happiness.

From:
Dear me...

Christina Grimmie

This blog is not about to describe a person. It's more to describe my life. Therefore if you came by to read about Christina... You wouldn't get much info anyway

Christina Grimmie has been an idol to me. The way she sings, the way she talk and everything about her is beautiful. She moved on at 11th of July getting shot by a man with two guns who shot himself afterwards as well.

I really admire Christina Grimmie since 2011 when first the song Just A Dream came out. I always like that song as it really somehow describe me, my life during 2009 where things sucks as hell.

Her voice moved me. Everytime I study I would on her song just to have a good time by myself listening to a person who is good at it. 

Just now I woke up at 2 am wanting to do something. Ended up playing League of Legends. I wanted to play one last game and then I was assign to play a character I haven't play a long time... Ahri, The Nine Tails Fox. Last I play Ahri was like 3 to 5 years back and had not played her for a freaking long time. Had good fun with playing Ahri. Some of the videos about Christina was her playing Ahri missing skillshots... I played and made sure I carried the game. 

RIP Christina.... I will miss your songs and covers...

I will always imagine how would you sing this song and that song. You are beautiful and God wants you to be with him. Go and entertain another world. You will do fine... I am sure of it :)

Hey :DDD

Hello :D
It's my birthday again this time and date :P
Happy birthday to me :)
Spending my time at home in front of my laptop
#lifeless
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Thanks for reading. Goodbye :P

Giving up or Continue?

Heyya guys :)
It's been a long time right?
So yeah. I will talk about something depressing when you saw the topic but no...
It is a question to you. To those who are in a relationship actually.
My question is to you that who felt depress, like you've been asking yourself, Why he/she is so cold? He/She is not answering my call, Why? Should I break up?
Well, think of the stuff that actually makes this relationship goes on. Not to mention the duration, but never care about that. Duration doesn't matter. You see, if I show you a piece of white paper with a black dot and ask what do you see? You will tell me about the black dot first regardless of what comes next. We are always fixated to find the faults and never see the smiles and memories that actually we treasure it.

In my experience, I actually agree to broke up which was a fool of me...
Now I wake up everyday missing of the things I used to do. The feelings I used to have. The regrets that I had done. It hurts a lot actually and if you see. I try to think about what could be fix and try to throw it all. In the end it turns to mistakes. Send her messages where she would not think of. Till now I am not sure whether she had read it or not...

So back to my question
Which is more worth in your current situations? Going with the person whom you love/loved and re-find back the love you had lost or just quit? Giving in to your ego or letting your ego down?
Choice is yours :)

Peace out :D

The thing I hate the most

Lies!!!!

That would be lies....
I hate to hear lies. I dislike them very much. It makes me angry if I detect them. It makes me even more angrier when I trust that sentence and later on find out to know that that statement is a freaking lie.
I don't get it. Be honest. It doesn't kills to be honest. I can't face a person who tell lies to me nor can I let them go. There is always a doubt. Was it my fault? or was it for the fun of it so a lie was told?

I am a very emotional person with my multiple personality syndrome. But when I am caught in a lie, thousands of personality will react to it. Most of em are negative! and trust me. I would do some crazy stuff just after knowing its a lie! I always go against the flow of life. I will feel guilty doing so but I am forced to. I can be real after knowing you are fake, can I? So be prepared to face the fake me. It will hurt a lot and it will be that way until God knows when...

THE END!!!!!!!!!

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How fast life pass

I am already in my uni level where I am about to finish my foundation studies.
A friend of mine who is always like a sister to me just lost her father Saturday morning. Her father was sick for about a month. It was an early warning for Lord to keep them ready before He takes the noble man to His side. This actually made me very sad. Deep inside my heart I just wanted to give her a hug and tell her to be strong. Are you really okay right now? It's okay to be not okay. It's okay to tear up a little for a few weeks or months. Its okay, it really is. Don't lie to me about anything. I don't like it when I sense it. I can feel your sadness radiating miles away reaching towards me.

Few months back, a person consulted me on their grandmother who fell very very ill
I dare not give hope to her saying that a person is going to be alright all along. I am not God to know whether they will live longer or not. I always do not ponder around the people who are sick. I ponder around the people who felt down because of the people they care about were sick.

I don't really know how long does it takes you to read this. Maybe a day, maybe a week. But please please please, I know you can't show negative emotions in public. But please do not lie. Not this way of lie...

I can't live without you

I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU

That's what most of us say to each other, to the ones we love, to the ones we like, to the ones we cherish about. But you all should correct what you say there. It was never Can't live. You still do live if they leave you. It's I couldn't live properly without you.

I realize that about a month after a break up. It was hard at first. was hard not to go into my facebook messenger. Was hard holding my phone. I topple them everywhere as I do not have the strength to held on the thing that I had always hold on to.. with a wishful thinking I set it on silent and look out at the balcony.

Taking drugs was not my favorite. I mean alcohol. I drank a lot last week. Keep on drinking and drinking. Filled the floor of my balcony with one bottle and another one and another one and another one. Memories grows stronger same goes with the depression. Sadness and then comes miss. Then there goes the hand. Finish another poem to be publish

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Death Anniversary

Today is 22nd of march...
today is a sad day
this is the date when Mr.Guna died...
he died in 22nd march 2011
he was a wonderful teacher and my reason how I'd score my UPSR straight A's

maybe to some of you, you might think, scoring straight A's in UPSR is simple. But my attitude that time, no... I can't do it without him

maybe some of you those who don't know him wouldn't mind about it
but he was a wonderful teacher, a friend and a nice father
I still have the sms when his friend took his phone, reloaded it and send the message that he had pass away till now...
After five years, today, once again I looked at that particular message and pray
Dear God,Please bless him where ever he is...
I love you Mr.Guna
You went away too soon
It cracked our heart

Sincerely
Victor Ong